Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Eyelets in the Carpet

(Or: My joys & struggles working at home)
I've been doing a lot of research, reading and thinking about my business over the last few weeks. I've been reading lots & lots of the articles on Etsy's Quit Your Day Job series. They're encouraging and thought provoking and even a little envy provoking all at once! (Can I just say... I'm drooling over the photography!)
For a long time, I thought I'd work in an office. I liked the idea of the busyness, the organization- even the administrative type duties. I worked in lots of different types of jobs- I nannied, I did food service, I did retail. A few I loved, a couple I hated, most I simply didn't care about one way or another. Finally I decided to get into the office arena. I went to school (and paid way too much for it!). I finished and went into offices. I discovered that I liked the job part well enough. But I was slowly coming to realize that it wasn't really the job duties that I hated. It was the working for other people that made me cranky and gave me migraines on a near weekly basis. Even when I liked or at least didn't mind the people I worked with, deep down I knew this was not where I wanted to be for the rest of my life. The longer I did it, the worse it got.
Fast forward a few months to now. I'm mostly working from home on my own business. Part-time, I assistant manage a crafting store where I can take my work with me and get a little done away from home. As far as having an outside job, it's definitely the best! And when I'm working at home? I may not take days off- other than the occasional no technology weekend- since I check at least my email and a few other things at least once a day. But I love it. I'm relaxed. I sleep better. My migraines have dropped to one or less a month.
And I have eyelets in the carpet. For me, this sums up where I am today. Let me explain. If you've been around for a while, you know I've been planning a studio makeover for... well, just about forever. The plans have been finished and ready for months now. In the meantime, my studio has gotten  more and more disastrous. (Try putting something away when there is no room for it anywhere!) When I have lots of orders and projects to complete, I take over the house. There are materials on the coffee table and the kitchen table. In a 2 bedroom house, that's pretty much the entire place! I am so grateful I have a patient & supportive man who doesn't mind (much) when I do this. This is how eyelets end up in the carpet, though- that and the awful containers they come in when you purchase them! Who designs containers for teeny tiny pieces that won't stay closed if you look at them sideways?
So why hasn't my studio been finished before now? Mostly because of me. When I set aside money to buy the materials for the furniture and everything else, I inevitably see new paper lines or run out of something that I must have right away. It is so much more tempting to create than to buy nails and glue and sheets of wood. I don't look at a piece of wood and see everything it could be the way I do with a sheet of paper. Even though I grumble about my mess on an at least daily basis. And regularly have to search for things. Constantly clear off my desk so I have room to work. Let's not even discuss the mess that my ribbon boxes are in... The cats are sure enjoying that, though! Don't think I'm unhappy- I'm not. I love working in my pajamas. I love listening to whatever music or tv show I feel like having on. I'll be over the moon when I am busy enough to do it 100% of the time. For the next couple weeks? I am going to do my best to buy studio makeover materials and nothing else. Yesterday, I bought spray paint and a gallon of my furniture color. Next up? Either some wood or some hardware, I think. Because when my studio is finished, I'll be able to find anything. Anytime. There will be no eyelets in the carpet. No materials on the dining table.
So there's my confession. I dream of- need- a beautiful, well organized room. But I have an excruciatingly hard time getting there. I'm hoping for some advice, thoughts, encouragement. What kinds of things do you struggle with?

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